This a message to me as a writer
I wrote this article a year ago. It was a message for me as a writer who was and still is lost on my writing journey. I want to share it without editing or updating it to show how beginner writers think and dream. In addition, I want to encourage beginner writers to be confident and to send a message to them, we are in this together, and everything will be great; trust me.
I'm dreaming a lot lately of the moments when I can share my writings. Sometimes I say whatever let me publish what I have finished or what I have not finished yet. I will complete it quickly to share it online. Nonetheless, I reminded myself this is not the case because the easy parts are typing and publishing. The most challenging thing is what to write about and what to share with world.
In university, the writing classes were my favorite; I got to be creative as much as possible, making mistakes and knowing no judgement. I had the freedom to be creative and imaginative. I was excited, thrilled, and impatient for the moment that I could share what I had been writing all week. I get amusement from seeing my colleagues and teacher waiting for me to read what I have produced. They enjoyed my stories and sometimes believed them even though they knew they were fiction. Despite that, I used to be proud of my writing- I succeeded and achieved my goal of entertaining them. They were captivated by my stories. The control I had with my pen – the confidence I had in myself that I knew what I was writing. I knew I would not fail to make them hear me and concentrate on me I was confident and optimistic. I believed that there was always a good day of writing.
“We are in this together, and everything will be great; trust me.”
I'm in denial:
I discovered my passion for being a writer two years ago, and what I have in mind is one picture that is sitting in my writing lecture and my colleagues around me and my professor infront of me. I'm holding the paper and reading what I have written, smiling because none of them will have heard or expected what is on it. Therefore, when I started my website, I thought I would have the same audience as before, but this time with people of different gender and age. I assumed I would get recognized very soon. I lived in a lie for two months of my blogging experience. Building up a community of reading audience will not happen during nighttime- I knew it would take time to test the water, but I was in denial. I was lost and ignorant because of my past with writing – I was unsure of my moves and what motivated me. Writing as a college student is different from writing as an apprentice writer. I forget that real life is different from a fantasy world. I wondered if my writing had changed from what I used to jot down. Am I failing to divert them like before? Is writing now tricky, or have people's writing tastes changed? It took me a short time to discover the truth, but thankfully I woke up at the right time before I destroyed myself as a writer.
The vision is clear :
In these two months, I gathered the most valuable lessons that I wish I had known before starting my writing journey:
Goals: I imagined being a writer, but what is my purpose? What exactly do I want to be as a writer? What are my passions as a writer? What things make me want to write? I visualized my finished result without setting a goal to work toward.
Plan: planning to achieve my target, how I will be successful without process, and steps to guide me further.
Aspiration: my desire for writing is what led me to this place. Nevertheless, I did it wrong I was still living my university dream, but I forgot that I'm at a different time and should be changing to today's writing standards.
Life: I'm in real life. Nobody knows me, yet I must build that new community like before- working for a ponding trust between them and me.
Mature writers: I researched professional writers' journeys, and they have been through a lot. Thus, what I'm going through is normal. I'm not alone on this path; I have many writers like me. Looking at them inspires me to be open and accepting of my struggles.
